So, there have been many times where I've missed the opportunity to see someone important, especially girls. Like the girl who told me to look her up on FB, only for me to realize afterwards that I didn't know her full name. Or all the times I missed out on spending time with my crush when she visited the farm, because she'd visit on the day I wasn’t there, or on the days I had to leave early to go home and deal with my mother's problems for her (long story). Or all the times when I was too busy to talk, or she was in a hurry to leave, presumably so she could go home and watch TV. Anyway, I thought that **** was in the past.
So, there's this neighbor girl who I've liked for a couple of years. I've talked about her before. I asked her out last spring (2022), but she politely declined. I could have chosen my moment better: that was my fault. A month or so later I tried to see her at her parents' house, but was told she'd left for college the day before. (See where this is going?) I've been hoping for a chance to see her ever since she came home from college in June, but haven't had a chance. I think she's usually working or out with friends, and the couple times I've seen her car in the driveway I haven’t had the courage to stop. A few nights ago I was driving home when I saw her car at her grandparents' house. I thought this was my chance, but by the time I turned around she was leaving. ****. It did make me realize that she'll be going back to college soon, and if I don't see her soon I might not get another chance until the holidays. So this noon I stopped by her parents' house. Her car was there, so I mustered my courage and went to the door. I talked to her mom for a couple minutes, and then asked if the girl was there. Nope, she's just flown to New York City.
I know thsse sort of missed opportunities are going to happen every once in a while, that's life. But it's like this happens almost every time I might meet someone. It's like the universe is actively trying to arrange these failed non-encounters. What the actual ****.
Sorry for the textwall, I just needed to write out my thoughts. I'm not upset, I'm actually laughing, but this is starting to feel surreal.