Well, I'm back, as after four months of counseling I've got to the point where neither myself nor my counselor feel the need for me to go.
For any others here suffering with mental health and past trauma, CBT was a godsend for me. I've never felt better, or more human and whole. Still got to finish this course of antidepressants until June, though.
Posting here out of pride. Beating my mental health issues and healing some of the wounds of the past is such a huge achievement for me, and I guess I'm just bursting to share.