If no one ever knew I'd probably live on the street of some big city until I reach an epiphany about life and morality.
I find this hard to do when I have this much stuff. I mean, there's the family business, there's the military, there's education, there's my car and my computer, all my books and my money. Friends. Hell, even my parents with all their 'caring' and **** ****ing me over.
It's not like anyone would understand why a young person with a lot of potential (according to regular cultural and societal parameters anyway) would want to do anything like that. Throw it all away. I was taught that I'm 'special' since I was born. I'm not. Tough luck. But I'm still trapped by all the material possessions I was born with.
If I died right now, I would have lived all my life without clarity and virtue.
I mean, sure, living in a car whenever not in the military is probably a step on the way, but even that is difficult. I met my 96-year old grandfather this week. A successful businessman, the father of 4 successful businessmen who all married women that were successful in their own areas. This is probably the living person that I respect the most. Very educated person, understands the principle of simple living etc., but I suppose there's something that makes people feel that a person who gives up on material possessions is somehow inferior. And, of course, that's not something you want for your grandchild. Or maybe he just remembers the war when the family lost pretty much everything.
I dunno, maybe I should scour the Bible for support of this idea. Wouldn't be the first to do that. Might make religious people view the endeavour more favourably.