Mental Health

[Sedericus]

hello!

Im not well known around here and i don't know any of you but i feel before i take this to the next level that talking to complete strangers via a faceless medium is best.

it started when i was a young lad about 5 years old, i was very hyper moved around a lot had a very short attention span and got angry a lot of the time, people thought i had ADHD which my parents would never let me be diagnosed with because they thought that if i was given label i would act up to it which i completely agree with.

Now as an adult i dont just have this hyper state anymore i have 2 very strange attitudes sometimes they conflict which causes me to be angry due to being confused as what to think.

these states range from being insanely happy and upbeat and getting up to go to work is no problem at all and no matter the weather i see the outside world as something incredible and that i need to take the day by the horns and acheive something but i never finish anything i start.

But then the other state sends my flying in the other direction for no reason not wanting any human contact getting angry with people that have done nothing wrong, luckily through being the crazy hyper kid at school
i've learnt to control my anger and found ways to vent it.

why I'm saying this on a forum over the interenet in no way related to this issue at all i have no idea, i guess its easier to talk to you because i dont know any of you but what the hell is wrong with me?

these symptoms scream bipolar and they are getting stronger every year, do i see a doctor? or am i just scaring myself into being a little unhinged?

do you guys suffer from any of the above?

 

[Phonemelter]

Sounds a bit like bipolar disorder.

Edit: Ah, didn't realize you had it at the bottom. Yeah, definitely go see a doctor, probably a psychologist/psychiatrist or another mental health specialist.

 

[PoisonCourtesan]

That and please capitalize the letter i when referring to yourself.

 

[Tuckles]

Indeed. You should see a therapist, get diagnosed and, if you have it, treated. Bipolar disorder can get real nasty real quick.


A couple of stories to accentuate my point:

My friend's sister's ex-boyfriend was apparently bipolar. One day, he walked out of their house and never came back.

Same friend's ex-girlfriend was also (diagnosed) bipolar. Tried to strangle him in the middle of the university's busiest building.

My uncle was bipolar. Emphasis on "was" if you get my drift.

Yeah, that friend's weird.



On the other hand, I also have major mood swings like that, sometimes even minutes apart. I would be hyperactive, really loud and such one minute, and the next, I'd be on the floor, silent as stone and very depressed. I still get it sometimes, but it isn't as severe as during high school. During health class in high school we were talking about drugs, specifically mood altering ones, and even my teacher commented that I seemed like I was on drugs most of the time.

 

[Fehnor]

Hmm, delicate subject.

I don't think I have any neurological disorders, but I see a psychologist anyway. It's good to pay someone to listen to you, especially to talk about subjects you don't want to burden friends and family with. Paying them takes away the pressure of talking about heavy things, because you're paying them to listen. That being said, I enjoy it, and I don't think the psychologist would continue if he didn't enjoy it at least a little.

I am lucky in finding someone who relates to me easily. It doesn't feel like going to the doctor. I can't give you an opinion on pill pushers (HAH! there's my opinion), but if a psychologist doesn't work out, you can find another one or just stop going without any side effects.

I hope this helps a little. Paying for someone to talk to is not a bad thing, and you shouldn't think of yourself as abnormal.

If you're comfortable looking on the internet, a lot of self-employed psychologists have websites where they talk about their approach to the field. I would recommend looking for people in your area with experience in cognitive behavior therapy, who don't mention religion at all (unless you want god to fix your problems) when they talk about their approach, and describe their appraoch to privacy in exact terms.

 

[Sedericus]

That and please capitalize the letter i when referring to yourself.

aaah your the reason condoms were invented...

to the few that have taken the time to give a proper answer i appreciate it, it felt bloody amazing just to type that out.

I think before i consult a doctor of sorts the first person im going to speak with mainly because of her experience as a mental health volunteer is my girlfriend.

she needs to know why i do all the weird **** i do.

thanks

may seem like a little but you did a lot just by replying.

 

[PoisonCourtesan]

That and please capitalize the letter i when referring to yourself.

aaah your the reason condoms were invented...

I can see why you need the shrink.

 

[Sedericus]

i do, atleast i can admit that now

im also not going to argue with you who i don't know an nor you me.

 

[Mage246]

Just another person with a mental health issue, which is evident from those posts. At least you're willing to admit yours.

 

[Sedericus]

heh, tell me about it.

im starting to think that the people who don't have atleast a little something wrong with them are the weird ones..

so how about you mage?

do you have anything locked away?

at this point im starting to believe that maybe we all have.

 

[Mage246]

I do, but it stays locked away. Then again, my obsessive need to control it is probably a symptom.

 

[Sedericus]

I had that a lot through my teens with my suspected ADHD, i was taunted at school because they knew i would bite so i found The one thing that stopped me being the hyper out of control youth and that was weed.
I now don't smoke it all that often due to becoming an overly lazy bugger but when i feel myself building back up to a crazed state i dabble again.

One thing i do have to stay away from is alcohol, instantly makes me unhappy and frustrated and if i do touch the stuff i have to be around people who know me best.

 

[Mage246]

The thing is, I do control it. To the extent that nobody knows about it unless I tell them. Anyway, the symptom I'm talking about is a need to control it without any help at all. No meds/drugs, no counseling, nothing. Probably self-destructive but I guess we'll see.

 

[Sedericus]

you are stronger than me mage, i'm starting to lose control of it but i also believe that drugs aren't the answer but the weed does help a little.

half the battle is also talking about it, this doesn't effect my personal life talking on here so i haven't even begun to battle this weird thing thats effecting me. the fear of what people might say when i tell them is the one major thing thats stopping me even though deep down i know the people close will understand.

 

[Tibertus]

I just wanted to say that I'm very glad your parents refused to have you diagnosed at such a young age. It's very difficult to diagnose very young children with any type of disorder and in the 90s there was a very bad trend of doctors, in the US at least, misdiagnosing young children and in the end, screwing them up way worse than if they had just let the child live med free for a few more years to see how things developed. There's a good chance that if you were treated for ADHD and really were bi-polar, you could end up with even wilder mood swings that could be unmanageable even with medication.

 

[Pharaoh Llandy]

hello!

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Im not well known around here and i don't know any of you but i feel before i take this to the next level that talking to complete strangers via a faceless medium is best.

it started when i was a young lad about 5 years old, i was very hyper moved around a lot had a very short attention span and got angry a lot of the time, people thought i had ADHD which my parents would never let me be diagnosed with because they thought that if i was given label i would act up to it which i completely agree with.

Now as an adult i dont just have this hyper state anymore i have 2 very strange attitudes sometimes they conflict which causes me to be angry due to being confused as what to think.

these states range from being insanely happy and upbeat and getting up to go to work is no problem at all and no matter the weather i see the outside world as something incredible and that i need to take the day by the horns and acheive something but i never finish anything i start.

But then the other state sends my flying in the other direction for no reason not wanting any human contact getting angry with people that have done nothing wrong, luckily through being the crazy hyper kid at school
i've learnt to control my anger and found ways to vent it.

why I'm saying this on a forum over the interenet in no way related to this issue at all i have no idea, i guess its easier to talk to you because i dont know any of you but what the hell is wrong with me?

these symptoms scream bipolar and they are getting stronger every year, do i see a doctor? or am i just scaring myself into being a little unhinged?

It does indeed sound like manic depression. Or, as they're calling it these days, "bipolar disorder".

And I agree with whoever the first three people were who said that you should visit a doctor and get checked out. There is a lot of stigma attached to mental health issues sometimes, but usually, the sooner you can see a specialist, the sooner you can be helped, and the sooner you can help yourself. Do it ASAP, I suggest.

do you guys suffer from any of the above?

I did, when I was 11-15. I call it "being a hormonal teenager". But if you're out of your teens it's less likely to be a problem caused by growth/sex hormones and you should seek professional assistance at your earliest convenience.

 

[Sedericus]

yeah im glad they did, people knew there was something a little different about me and i didnt need a special class or anything. they just learned to help get rid of the emotions i were feeling so i could carry on as normal.

i was a real pain in the arse when i used to get my hands on coca cola though as a kid 

I got banned from a child play center for protecting my friends from a bigger kid by breaking his nose, if i had not had coca cola an hour before i would have just let that kid bully us but no, brain overload resulted in my hand meeting his nose.. 

you know the more i talk about it the less i see i have a problem, we all have something wrong with us even if we don't like to admit it maybe me more/less than others if i explain to the people close to me about my problems then i should be fine. Im going to take the same approach my parents had with me but with myself.

EDIT: yeah im 22 now so i am well passed the hormones, they were difficult enough without the hyperactivity lol
I think i will once i speak to people close to me as they may give me moral support i need to get over this horrible cycle i seem to be in.

 

[Pharaoh Llandy]

Aight, but if your depressive lows get so bad that you contemplate suicide, it's genuinely time to get professional help.

 

[Sedericus]

My depression doesnt manifest itself in that form.

It kinda makes me a recluse i don't want to talk to people i just want to go to my room and retreat inside my own head, Im pretty strong minded so i've learnt to pick myself up and just throw myself into situations to stop me doing this but its exhausting pushing your train of thought in a direction it really doesnt want to go in.

the biggest step i took a good 2 years ago now which was singing, i sing in a band with my best friends. this helps me a lot as we spend a lot of time together even if my brain does create this false sense of resentment towards them sometimes. i know that its what ever thats effecting me making me feel that way so i force my way out, if i didnt i would lock myself in my room and never come out 

 

[Jace]

If you have two hours or so spare at some point, you might find this rather interesting/educational/helpful:

Stephen Fry - The Secret Life Of The Manic Depressive - Part 1 and Part 2

Which is Stephen Fry talking about his past, how bipolar disorder has affected his life and how he has dealt with it etc. Also talks a lot about how he feels in either mood.