i dont know what to do, believe in god or not. ive had a hard life, being born a christian and being adopted into a jewish family almost immediatly after i was born. i never met my real parents, and im still trying after 11 years. i made a promise to find them and find out why they gave me up. i made that vow at age 7. and yes, i am 11, but i am very advanced for my age.