I don't think I ever played Hamor on Warband, but if I did it would have been a great game. Like everyone I have ever had the privilege to play with. Our gaming community is so small that we are, in my opinion, a family. To lose a member of this family is an absolute tradegy. My condolences to his family. I hope everyone else I have ever played with is good.
Please seek help if you ever feel overwhelmed. Don't underestimate the help you can get by talking to anyone about your emotions. Don't be afraid to admit you are struggling with problems. Talk... Talk and keep talking... at least you will be still here. Stay strong.